There are literally billions of people on the earth right now but is only one you. Only you can spend 100% of the time with yourself. No one else is with you 24/7/365. Self-awareness is the prerequisite for the goal of living in the present but first you need ito address everything that has you preoccupied. Organize your self. Take a personal inventory. Use a journal and enlist the help of a therapist or sponsor. Relook at your Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACES) with self-compassion.